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　　Jahns’s walking stick made a conspicuous ring as it impacted each metal step. It soon became ametronome for their descent, timing the music of the stairwell, which was crowded and vibratingwith the energy of a recent cleaning. All the traffic seemed to be heading upward, save for the two ofthem. They jostled against the flow, elbows brushing, cries of “Hey, Mayor!” followed by nods toMarnes. And Jahns saw it on their faces: the temptation to call him sheriff tempered by their respectfor the awful nature of his assumed promotion.

　　“How many floors you up for?” Marnes asked.

　　“Why, you tired already?” Jahns glanced over her shoulder to smirk at him, saw his bushymustache twisted up in a smile of his own.

　　“Going down ain’t a problem for me. It’s the going back up I can’t stand.”

　　Their hands briefly collided on the twisted railing of the spiral staircase, Jahns’s hand trailingbehind her, Marnes’s reaching ahead. She felt like telling him she wasn’t tired at all, but she did feela sudden weariness, an exhaustion more mental than physical. She had a childish vision of moreyouthful times and pictured Marnes scooping her up and carrying her down the staircase in his arms.

　　There would be a sweet release of strength and responsibility, a sinking into another’s power, no needto feign her own. This was not a remembrance of the past—it was a future that had never happened.

　　And Jahns felt guilty for even thinking it. She felt her husband beside her, his ghost perturbed by herthoughts—

　　“Mayor? How many you thinking?”

　　The two of them stopped and hugged the rail as a porter trudged up the stairs. Jahns recognizedthe boy, Connor, still in his teens but already with a strong back and steady stride. He had an array ofbundles strapped together and balanced on his shoulders. The sneer on his face was not fromexhaustion or pain, but annoyance. Who were all these people suddenly on his stairwell? Thesetourists? Jahns thought of something encouraging to say, some small verbal reward for these peoplewho did a job her knees never could, but he was already gone on his strong young feet, carrying foodand supplies up from the down deep, slowed only by the crush of traffic attempting to worm upthrough the silo for a peek of the clear and wide outside.

　　She and Marnes caught their breath for a moment between flights. Marnes handed her his canteen,and she took a polite sip before passing it back.

　　“I’d like to do half today,” she finally answered. “But I want to make a few stops on the way.”

　　Marnes took a swig of water and began twisting the cap back on. “House calls?”

　　“Something like that. I want to stop at the nursery on twenty.”

　　Marnes laughed. “Kissin’ babies? Mayor, ain’t nobody gonna vote you out. Not at your age.”

　　Jahns didn’t laugh. “Thanks,” she said with a mask of false pain. “But no, not to kiss babies.” Sheturned her back and resumed walking; Marnes followed. “It’s not that I don’t trust your professionalopinion about this Jules lady. You haven’t picked anything but a winner since I’ve been mayor.”

　　“Even … ?” Marnes interrupted.

　　“Especially him,” Jahns said, knowing what he was thinking. “He was a good man, but he had abroken heart. That’ll take even the best of them down.”

　　Marnes grunted his agreement. “So what’re we checkin’ at the nursery? This Juliette weren’t bornon the twentieth, not if I recall—”

　　“No, but her father works there now. I thought, since we were passing by, that we’d get a feel forthe man, get some insight on his daughter.”

　　“A father for a character witness?” Marnes laughed. “Don’t reckon you’ll get much of animpartial there.”

　　“I think you’ll be surprised,” Jahns said. “I had Alice do some digging while I was packing. Shefound something interesting.”

　　“Yeah?”

　　“This Juliette character still has every vacation chit she’s ever earned.”

　　“That ain’t rare for Mechanical,” Marnes said. “They do a lot of overtime.”

　　“Not only does she not get out, she doesn’t have visitors.”

　　“I still don’t see where you’re going with this.”

　　Jahns waited while a family passed. A young boy, six or seven probably, rode on his father’sshoulders with his head ducked to avoid the undersides of the stairs above. The mother brought upthe rear, an overnight bag draped over her shoulder, a swaddled infant cradled in her arms. It was theperfect family, Jahns thought. Replacing what they took. Two for two. Just what the lottery aimed forand sometimes provided.

　　“Well then, let me tell you where I’m going with this,” she told Marnes. “I want to find this girl’sfather, look him in the eyes, and ask him why, in the nearly twenty years since his daughter moved toMechanical, he hasn’t visited her. Not once.”

　　She looked back at Marnes, saw him frowning at her beneath his mustache.

　　“And why she hasn’t once made her way up to see him,” she added.

　　????

　　The traffic thinned as they made their way into the teens and past the upper apartments. With eachstep down, Jahns dreaded having to reclaim those lost inches on the way back up. This was the easypart, she reminded herself. The descent was like the uncoiling of a steel spring, pushing her down. Itreminded Jahns of nightmares she’d had of drowning. Silly nightmares, considering she’d never seenenough water to submerge herself in, much less enough that she couldn’t stand up to breathe. Butthey were like the occasional dreams of falling from great heights, some legacy of another time,broken fragments unearthed in each of their sleeping minds that suggested: We weren’t supposed tolive like this.

　　And so the descent, this spiraling downward, was much like the drowning that swallowed her atnight. It felt inexorable and inextricable. Like a weight pulling her down combined with theknowledge that she’d never be able to claw her way back up.

　　They passed the garment district next, the land of multicolored coveralls and the place her balls ofyarn came from. The smell of the dyes and other chemicals drifted over the landing. A window cutinto the curving cinder blocks looked through to a small food shop at the edge of the district. It hadbeen ransacked by the crowds, shelves emptied by the crushing demand of exhausted hikers and theextra post-cleaning traffic. Several porters crowded up the stairs with heavy loads, trying their best tosatisfy demand, and Jahns recognized an awful truth about yesterday’s cleaning: the barbaric practicebrought more than psychological relief, more than just a clear view of the outside—it also buttressedthe silo’s economy. There was suddenly an excuse to travel. An excuse to trade. And as gossipflowed, and family and old friends met again for the first time in months or perhaps years, there was avitality injected into the entire silo. It was like an old body stretching and loosening its joints, bloodflowing to the extremities. A decrepit thing was becoming alive again.

　　“Mayor!”

　　She turned to find Marnes almost out of sight around the spiral above her. She paused while hecaught up, watching his feet as he hurried.

　　“Easy,” he said. “I can’t keep up if you take off like that.”

　　Jahns apologized. She hadn’t been aware of any change in her pace.

　　As they entered the second tier of apartments, down below the sixteenth floor, Jahns realized shewas already in territory she hadn’t seen in almost a year. There was the rattle here of younger legschasing along the stairwell, getting tangled up in the slow climbers. The grade school for the upperthird was just above the nursery. From the sound of all the traffic and voices, school had beencanceled. Jahns imagined it was a combination of knowing how few would turn up for class (withparents taking their kids up to the view) plus how many teachers would want to do the same. Theypassed the landing for the school, where chalk games of Hop and Square-Four were blurred from theday’s traffic, where kids sat hugging the rails, skinned knees poking out, feet swinging below thejutting landings, and where catcalls and eager shouts faded to secret whispers in the presence ofadults.

　　“Glad we’re almost there, I need a rest,” Marnes said as they spiraled down one more flight to thenursery. “I just hope this feller is available to see us.”

　　“He will be,” Jahns said. “Alice wired him from my office that we were coming.”

　　They crossed traffic at the nursery landing and caught their breath. When Marnes passed hiscanteen, Jahns took a long pull and then checked her hair in its curved and dented surface.

　　“You look fine,” he said.

　　“Mayoral?”

　　He laughed. “And then some.”

　　Jahns thought she saw a twinkle in his old brown eyes when he said this, but it was probably thelight bouncing off the canteen as he brought it to his lips.

　　“Twenty floors in just over two hours. Don’t recommend the pace, but I’m glad we’re this faralready.” He wiped his mustache and reached around to try to slip the canteen back into his pack.

　　“Here,” Jahns said. She took the canteen from him and slid it into the webbed pouch on the rear ofhis pack. “And let me do the talking in here,” she reminded him.

　　Marnes lifted his hands and showed his palms, as if no other thought had ever crossed his mind.

　　He stepped past her and pulled one of the heavy metal doors open, the customary squeal of rustedhinges not coming as expected. The silence startled Jahns. She was used to hearing the chirp of olddoors up and down the staircase as they opened and closed. They were the stairwell’s version of thewildlife found in the farms, ever present and always singing. But these hinges were coated in oil,rigorously maintained. The signs on the walls of the waiting room reinforced the observation. Theydemanded silence in bold letters, accompanied by pictures of fingers over lips and circles with slashesthrough open mouths. The nursery evidently took its quietude seriously.

　　“Don’t remember so many signs last time I was here,” Marnes whispered.

　　“Maybe you were too busy yapping to notice,” Jahns replied.

　　A nurse glared at them through a glass window, and Jahns elbowed Marnes.

　　“Mayor Jahns to see Peter Nichols,” she told the woman.

　　The nurse behind the window didn’t blink. “I know who you are. I voted for you.”

　　“Oh, of course. Well, thank you.”

　　“If you’ll come around.” The woman hit a button on her desk and the door beside her buzzedfaintly. Marnes pushed on the door, and Jahns followed him through.

　　“If you’ll don these.”

　　The nurse—Margaret, according to the hand-drawn tag on her collar—held out two neatly foldedwhite cloth robes. Jahns accepted them both and handed one to Marnes.

　　“You can leave your bags with me.”

　　There was no refusing Margaret. Jahns felt at once that she was in this much younger woman’sworld, that she had become her inferior when she passed through that softly buzzing door. She leanedher walking stick against the wall, took her pack off and lowered it to the ground, then shrugged onthe robe. Marnes struggled with his until Margaret helped, holding the sleeve in place. He wrestledthe robe over his denim shirt and held the loose ends of the long fabric waist tie as if its working wasbeyond his abilities. He watched Jahns knot hers, and finally made enough of a mess of it for the robeto hold fairly together.

　　“What?” he asked, noticing the way Jahns was watching him. “This is what I’ve got cuffs for. So Inever learned to tie a knot, so what?”

　　“In sixty years,” Jahns said.

　　Margaret pressed another button on her desk and pointed down the hall. “Dr. Nichols is in thenursery. I’ll let him know you’re coming.”

　　Jahns led the way. Marnes followed, asking her, “Why is that so hard to believe?”

　　“I think it’s cute, actually.”

　　Marnes snorted. “That’s an awful word to use on a man my age.”

　　Jahns smiled to herself. At the end of the hall, she paused before a set of double doors beforepushing them open a crack. The light in the room beyond was dim. She opened the door further, andthey entered a sparse but clean waiting room. She remembered a similar one from the mid levelswhere she had waited with a friend to be reunited with her child. A glass wall looked into a room thatheld a handful of cribs and bassinets. Jahns’s hand dropped to her hip. She rubbed the hard nub of hernow-useless implant, inserted at birth and never removed, not once. Being in that nursery remindedher of all she had lost, all she had given up for her work. For her ghosts.

　　It was too dark inside the nursery to see if any of the small beds stirred with newborns. She wasnotified of every birth, of course. As mayor, she signed a letter of congratulations and a birthcertificate for each one, but the names ran together with the days. She could rarely remember whatlevel the parents lived on, if it was their first or second. It made her sad to admit it, but thosecertificates had become just more paperwork, another rote duty.

　　The shadowy outline of an adult moved among the small cribs, the shiny clamp of a clipboard andthe flash of a metal pen winking in the light of the observation room. The dark shape was obviouslytall, with the gait and build of an older man. He took his time, noting something as he hovered over acrib, the two shimmers of metal uniting to jot a note. When he was done, he crossed the room andpassed through a wide door to join Marnes and Jahns in the waiting room.

　　Peter Nichols was an imposing figure, Jahns saw. Tall and lean, but not like Marnes, who seemedto fold and unfold unsure limbs to move about. Peter was lean like a habitual exerciser, like a fewporters Jahns knew who could take the stairs two at a time and make it look like they’d beenexpressly designed for such a pace. It was height that lent confidence. Jahns could feel it as she tookPeter’s outstretched hand and let him pump it firmly.

　　“You came,” Dr. Nichols said simply. It was a cold observation. There was only a hint of surprise.

　　He shook Marnes’s hand, but his eyes returned to Jahns. “I explained to your secretary that Iwouldn’t be much help. I’m afraid I haven’t seen Juliette since she became a shadow twenty yearsago.”

　　“Well, that’s actually what I wanted to talk to you about.” Jahns glanced at the cushioned bencheswhere she imagined anxious grandparents, aunts, and uncles waited while parents were united withtheir newborns. “Could we sit?”

　　Dr. Nichols nodded and waved them over.

　　“I take each of my appointments for office very seriously,” Jahns explained, sitting across fromthe doctor. “At my age, I expect most judges and lawmen I install to outlive me, so I choosecarefully.”

　　“But they don’t always, do they?” Dr. Nichols tilted his head, no expression on his lean andcarefully shaven face. “Outlive you, I mean.”

　　Jahns swallowed. Marnes stirred on the bench beside her.

　　“You must value family,” Jahns said, changing the subject, realizing this was just anotherobservation, no harm meant. “To have shadowed so long and to choose such a demanding line ofwork.”

　　Nichols nodded.

　　“Why do you and Juliette never visit? I mean, not once in twenty years. She’s your only child.”

　　Nichols turned his head slightly, his eyes drifting to the wall. Jahns was momentarily distracted bythe sight of another form moving behind the glass, a nurse making the rounds. Another set of doorsled off to what she assumed were the delivery rooms, where right now a convalescing new motherwas probably waiting to be handed her most precious possession.

　　“I had a son as well,” Dr. Nichols said.

　　Jahns felt herself reaching for her bag to procure the folders within, but it wasn’t by her side. Thiswas a detail she had missed, a brother.

　　“You couldn’t have known,” Nichols said, correctly reading the shock on Mayor Jahns’s face.

　　“He didn’t survive. Technically, he wasn’t born. The lottery moved on.”

　　“I’m sorry …”

　　She fought the urge to reach over and hold Marnes’s hand. It had been decades since the two ofthem had purposefully touched, even innocently, but the sudden sadness in the room punctured thatintervening time.

　　“His name was going to be Nicholas, my father’s father’s name. He was born prematurely. Onepound eight ounces.”

　　The clinical precision in his voice was somehow sadder than an outpouring of emotion might havebeen.

　　“They intubated, moved him into an incubator, but there were … complications.” Dr. Nicholslooked down at the backs of his hands. “Juliette was thirteen at the time. She was as excited as wewere, if you can imagine, to have a baby brother on the way. She was one year out from shadowingher mother, who was a delivery nurse.” Nichols glanced up. “Not here in this nursery, mind you, butin the old mid-level nursery, where we both worked. I was still an intern then.”

　　“And Juliette?” Mayor Jahns still didn’t understand the connection.

　　“There was a failure with the incubator. When Nicholas—” The doctor turned his head to the sideand brought his hand halfway to his eyes but was able to compose himself. “I’m sorry. I still call himthat.”

　　“It’s okay.”

　　Mayor Jahns was holding Deputy Marnes’s hand. She wasn’t sure when or how that hadhappened. The doctor didn’t seem to notice or, more likely, care.

　　“Poor Juliette.” He shook his head. “She was distraught. She blamed Rhoda at first, anexperienced delivery nurse who had done nothing but work a miracle to give our boy the slim chancehe had. I explained this. I think Juliette knew. She just needed someone to hate.” He nodded to Jahns.

　　“Girls that age, you know?”

　　“Believe it or not, I remember.” Jahns forced a smile and Dr. Nichols returned it. She felt Marnessqueeze her hand.

　　“It wasn’t until her mother died that she took to blaming the incubator that had failed. Well, notthe incubator, but the poor condition it was in. The general state of rot all things become.”

　　“Your wife died from the complications?” It was another detail Jahns felt she must have missedfrom the file.

　　“My wife killed herself a week later.”

　　Again, the clinical detachment. Jahns wondered if this was a survival mechanism that had kickedin after these events, or a personality trait already in place.

　　“Seems like I would remember that,” Deputy Marnes said, the first words he’d uttered sinceintroducing himself to the doctor.

　　“Well, I wrote the certificate myself. So I could put whatever cause I wanted—”

　　“And you admit to this?” Marnes seemed ready to leap off the bench. To do what, Jahns couldhardly guess. She held his arm to keep him in place.

　　“Beyond the statute of limitations? Of course. I admit it. It was a worthless lie, anyway. Juliettewas smart, even at that age. She knew. And this is what drove her—” He stopped himself.

　　“Drove her what?” Mayor Jahns asked. “Crazy?”

　　“No.” Dr. Nichols shook his head. “I wasn’t going to say that. It’s what drove her away. Sheapplied for a change in casters. Demanded to move down to Mechanical, to enter the shop as ashadow. She was a year too young for that sort of placement, but I agreed. I signed off on it. I thoughtshe’d go, get some deep air, come back. I was na?ve. I thought the freedom would be good for her.”

　　“And you haven’t seen her since?”

　　“Once. For her mother’s funeral, just a few days later. She marched up on her own, attended theburial, gave me a hug, then marched back down. All without rest, from what I’ve heard. I try to keepup with her. I have a colleague in the deep nursery who will wire now and then with a bit of news.

　　It’s all focus, focus, focus with her.”

　　Nichols paused and laughed.

　　“You know, when she was young, all I saw was her mother in her. But she grew up to be morelike me.”

　　“Is there anything you know that would preclude her from or make her ill suited for the job of silosheriff? You do understand what’s involved with the job, right?”

　　“I understand.” Nichols looked over at Marnes, his eye drifting to the copper badge visiblethrough the open, shoddily tied robe, down to the bulge of a pistol at his side. “All the little lawmenthroughout the silo have to have someone up top, giving commands, is that it?”

　　“More or less,” Jahns said.

　　“Why her?”

　　Marnes cleared his throat. “She helped us with an investigation once—”

　　“Jules? She was up here?”

　　“No. We were down there.”

　　“She has no training.”

　　“None of us have,” Marnes said. “It’s more of a … political office. A citizen’s post.”

　　“She won’t agree to it.”

　　“Why not?” Jahns asked.

　　Nichols shrugged. “You’ll see for yourself, I suppose.” He stood. “I wish I could give you moretime, but I really should get back.” He glanced at the set of double doors. “We’ll be bringing a familyin soon—”

　　“I understand.” Jahns rose and shook his hand. “I appreciate your seeing us.”

　　He laughed. “Did I have a choice?”

　　“Of course.”

　　“Well, I wish I’d known that sooner.”

　　He smiled, and Jahns saw that he was joking, or attempting to. As they parted company andwalked back down the hallway to collect their things and return the robes, Jahns found herself moreand more intrigued by this nomination of Marnes’s. It wasn’t his style, a woman from the down deep.

　　A person with baggage. She wondered if his judgment was perhaps clouded by other factors. And ashe held the door for her, leading out to the main waiting room, Mayor Jahns wondered if she wasgoing along with him because her judgment was clouded as well.