"Very well," I replied, "very well, Madame, but let's spend a moment reasoning in terms of your own principles: what right have you to require that my conscience be as impregnable as yours when since childhood it has not been accustomed to
vanquishing1 the same prejudices? By what title do you require that my mind, which is not constituted like your own, be able to adopt the same systems? You acknowledge sums of good and evil in Nature, you admit that, in consequence, there must be a certain quantity of beings who practice good and another group which devotes itself to evil; the course I elect is hence natural; therefore, how would you be able to demand that I take leave of the rules Nature prescribes to me ? You say you find happiness in the career you pursue; very well, Madame, why should it be that I do not also find it in the career I pursue ? Do not suppose, furthermore, that the law's vigilance long leaves in peace him who violates its codes, you have just had a striking example of the contrary; of the fifteen scoundrels with whom I was living, fourteen perish
ignominiously2...."
"And is that what you call a misfortune ?" Dubois asked. "But what does this ignominy mean to him who has principles no longer? When one has
trespassed3 every frontier, when in our eyes honor is no more than a hallucination, reputation of perfect
indifference4, religion an illusion, death a total annihilation; is it then not the same thing, to die on the scaffold or in bed? There are two varieties of
rascals5 in the world, Therese: the one a powerful fortune or
prodigious6 influence shelters from this
tragic7 end; the other one who is unable to avoid it when taken. The latter, born unprovided with possessions, must have but one desire if he has any esprit: to become rich at no matter what price; if he succeeds, he obtains what he wanted and should be content; if he is put on the rack, what's he to regret since he has nothing to lose? Those laws decreed against banditry are null if they are not extended to apply to the powerful bandit; that the law inspire any
dread8 in the
miserable9 is impossible, for the sword is the miserable man's only resource."
"And do you believe," I broke in, "that in another world
Celestial10 Justice does not await him whom crime has not affrighted in this one?"
"I believe," this dangerous woman answered, "that if there were a God there would be less evil on earth; I believe that since evil exists, these
disorders11 are either expressly
ordained12 by this God, and there you have a barbarous fellow, or he is
incapable13 of preventing them and right away you have a feeble God; in either case, an
abominable14 being, a being whose lightning I should defy and whose laws
contemn15. Ah, Therese I is not
atheism16 preferable to the one and the other of these extremes? that's my
doctrine17, dear lass, it's been mine since childhood and I'll surely not
renounce18 it while I live."
"One moment, Therese," said Dubois, holding me back, "if I cannot conquer your reason, I may at least captivate your heart. I have need of you, do not refuse me your aid; here are a thousand louis: they will be yours as soon as the blow is struck."
Heedless of all but my
penchant22 for doing good, I immediately asked Dubois what was involved so as to
forestall23, if 'twere possible, the crime she was getting ready to commit.
"Here it is," she said: "have you noticed that young tradesman from Lyon who has been taking his meals here for the past four or five days?"
"Who? Dubreuil?"
"Well?"
"He is in love with you, he told me so in confidence, your modest and gentle air pleases him
infinitely25, he adores your
candor26, your
virtue27 enchants28 him; this romantic fellow has eight hundred thousand francs in gold or paper, it's all in a little coffer he keeps near his bed; let me give the man to understand you consent to hear him, whether that be true or not; for, does it matter? I'll get him to propose you a drive, you'll take a carriage out of the town, I'll persuade him he will advance matters with you during your
promenade29; you'll amuse him, you'll keep him away as long as possible, meanwhile I'll rob him, but I'll not flee; his
belongings30 will reach Turin before I quit Grenoble, we will employ all imaginable art to
dissuade31 him from settling his eyes upon us, we'll pretend to assist his searches; however, my departure will be announced, he'll not be surprised
thereby32, you'll follow me, and the thousand louis will be counted out to you immediately we get to the Piedmont."#p#分页标题#e#
"Agreed, Madame," I said to Dubois,
fully33 determined34 to warn Dubreuil of the concerted theft, "but consider," I added in order more
thoroughly35 to deceive this
villain36, "that if Dubreuil is fond of me, by revealing the business or by giving myself to him, I might get much more from him than you offer me to betray him."
"Bravo," replied Dubois, "that's what I call an
adept37 scholar, I'm beginning to believe Heaven gave you a greater talent for crime than you pretend: ah well," she continued, picking up a
quill38, "here's my note for twenty thousand crowns, now dare say no to me."
"Not for the world, Madame," quoth I, taking her note, "but, at least, my weakness and my wrong in surrendering to your seductions are to be attributed only to my
impecunious39 circumstances."
"I'd prefer to interpret it as a
meritorious40 act of your intelligence," said Dubois, "but if you prefer me to blame your poverty, why then, as you like; serve me and you will always be content."
Everything was arranged; the same evening I began in earnest to play my game with Dubreuil, and indeed I discovered he had some taste for me.
Nothing could have been more embarrassing than my situation: I was without any doubt far from lending myself to the proposed crime even had it been worth ten thousand times as much gold; but the idea of denouncing this woman was also painful for me; I was exceedingly
loath41 to expose to death a creature to whom I had owed my freedom ten years before. I should have liked to have been able to find a way of preventing the crime without having it punished, and with anyone else but a
consummate42 villain like Dubois I should have succeeded; here then is what I resolved to do, all the while
unaware43 that this horrible woman's base
maneuvers44 would not only topple the entire
edifice45 of my honorable schemes but even punish me for having dreamt of them.
Upon the day
fixed46 for the projected outing, Dubois invites us both to dine in her room, we accept, and the meal over, Dubreuil and I
descend47 to summon the carriage that has been prepared for us; Dubois does not accompany us, I find myself alone with Dubreuil the moment before we set out.
"Monsieur," I say, speaking very rapidly, "listen closely to me, don't be alarmed, no noise, and above all pay strict attention to what I am going to recommend; have you a reliable friend at this hotel ?"
"Yes, I have a young associate upon whom I can count with absolute confidence."
"Then, Monsieur, go
promptly48 and order him not to leave your room for a second while we are on our drive."
"But I have the key to the room; what does this excess of precaution signify7"
"It is more essential than you believe, Monsieur, I beg you to employ it, or else I shall not go out with you; the woman with whom we dined is a bandit, she only arranged our outing in order more easily to rob you while we are gone; make haste, Monsieur, she is watching us, she is dangerous; quickly, turn your key over to your friend, have him go and install himself in your room and let him not
budge49 until we're back. I'll explain the rest as soon as we are in the carriage."
Dubreuil
heeds50 me, presses my hand in token of thanks, flies to give orders relative to the warning he has received, and returns; we leave; when en route, I disclose the entire adventure to him, I recite mine and inform him of the unhappy circumstances in my life which have caused me to make the acquaintance of such a woman. This correct and sensible young man expresses the deepest
gratitude51 for the service I have just so
kindly52 rendered him, he takes an interest in my misfortunes, and proposes to
alleviate53 them with the
bestowal54 of his hand.
"I am only too happy to be able to make you
restitution55 for the wrongs fortune has done you, Mademoiselle," says he; "I am my own master, dependent upon no one, I am going on to Geneva to make a considerable investment with the funds your timely warning has saved me from losing; accompany me to Switzerland; when we arrive there I shall become your husband and you will not appear in Lyon under any other title, or, if you prefer, Mademoiselle, if you have any
misgivings56, it will only be in my own country I will give you my name."
Such an offer, so very flattering, was one I dared not refuse; but it did not on the other hand become me to accept it without making Dubreuil aware of all that might cause him to
repent57 it; he was grateful for my
delicacy58 and only insisted the more urgently... unhappy creature that I was! 'twas necessary that happiness be offered me only in order that I be more deeply
penetrated59 with grief at never being able to seize it! it was then ordained that no virtue could be born in my heart without preparing
torments60 for me!#p#分页标题#e#
Our conversation had already taken us two leagues from the city, and we were about to dismount in order to enjoy the fresh air along the bank of the Isere, when all of a sudden Dubreuil told me he felt very ill.... He got down, he was seized by dreadful vomitings; I had him climb into the carriage at once and we flew back posthaste to Grenoble. Dubreuil is so sick he has to be borne to his room; his condition startles his associate whom we find there and who, in accordance with instructions, has not stirred from the
chamber61; a doctor comes, Just Heaven! Dubreuil has been poisoned! I no sooner learn the fatal news than I dash to Dubois' apartment; the
infamous62 creature! she's gone; I rush to my room, my armoire has been forced open, the little money and
odds63 and ends I possess have been removed; Dubois, they tell me, left three hours ago in the direction of Turin. There was no doubt she was the author of this multitude of crimes; she had gone to Dubreuil's door; annoyed to find his room occupied, she revenged herself upon me and had envenomed Dubreuil at dinner so that upon our return, if she had succeeded with her theft, that unhappy young man would be more busied with his own failing life than concerned to pursue her who had made off with his fortune and would let her fly in safety; the accident of his death, occurring, so to speak, while he was in my arms, would make me appear more suspect than herself; nothing directly informed us of the scheme she had
contrived64, but could it have been different?