The story which Philip made out in one way and another was terrible. One of the grievances¹ of the women-students was that Fanny Price would never share their gay meals in restaurants, and the reason was obvious: she had been oppressed by dire² poverty. He remembered the luncheon³ they had eaten together when first he came to Paris and the ghoulish appetite which had disgusted him: he realised now that she ate in that manner because she was ravenous⁴. The concierge⁵ told him what her food had consisted of. A bottle of milk was left for her every day and she brought in her own loaf of bread; she ate half the loaf and drank half the milk at mid-day when she came back from the school, and consumed the rest in the evening. It was the same day after day. Philip thought with anguish⁶ of what she must have endured. She had never given anyone to understand that she was poorer than the rest, but it was clear that her money had been coming to an end, and at last she could not afford to come any more to the studio. The little room was almost bare of furniture, and there were no other clothes than the shabby brown dress she had always worn. Philip searched among her things for the address of some friend with whom he could communicate. He found a piece of paper on which his own name was written a score of times. It gave him a peculiar⁷ shock. He supposed it was true that she had loved him; he thought of the emaciated⁸ body, in the brown dress, hanging from the nail in the ceiling; and he shuddered⁹. But if she had cared for him why did she not let him help her? He would so gladly have done all he could. He felt remorseful¹⁰ because he had refused to see that she looked upon him with any particular feeling, and now these words in her letter were infinitely¹¹ pathetic: I can't bear the thought that anyone else should touch me. She had died of starvation.

 

Philip found at length a letter signed: your loving brother, Albert. it was two or three weeks old, dated from some road in Surbiton, and refused a loan of five pounds. The writer had his wife and family to think of, he didn't feel justified¹² in lending money, and his advice was that Fanny should come back to London and try to get a situation. Philip telegraphed to Albert Price, and in a little while an answer came:

 

'Deeply distressed¹³. Very awkward to leave my business. Is presence essential. Price.'

 

Philip wired a succinct¹⁵ affirmative, and next morning a stranger presented himself at the studio.

 

'My name's Price,' he said, when Philip opened the door.

 

He was a commonish man in black with a band round his bowler¹⁶ hat; he had something of Fanny's clumsy look; he wore a stubbly moustache, and had a cockney accent. Philip asked him to come in. He cast sidelong glances round the studio while Philip gave him details of the accident and told him what he had done.

 

'I needn't see her, need I?' asked Albert Price. 'My nerves aren't very strong, and it takes very little to upset me.'

 

He began to talk freely. He was a rubber-merchant, and he had a wife and three children. Fanny was a governess, and he couldn't make out why she hadn't stuck to that instead of coming to Paris.

 

'Me and Mrs. Price told her Paris was no place for a girl. And there's no money in art—never 'as been.'

 

It was plain enough that he had not been on friendly terms with his sister, and he resented her suicide as a last injury that she had done him. He did not like the idea that she had been forced to it by poverty; that seemed to reflect on the family. The idea struck him that possibly there was a more respectable reason for her act.

 

'I suppose she 'adn't any trouble with a man, 'ad she? You know what I mean, Paris and all that. She might 'ave done it so as not to disgrace herself.'

 

Philip felt himself reddening and cursed his weakness. Price's keen little eyes seemed to suspect him of an intrigue¹⁷.

 

'I believe your sister to have been perfectly¹⁸ virtuous,' he answered acidly. 'She killed herself because she was starving.'

 

'Well, it's very 'ard on her family, Mr. Carey. She only 'ad to write to me. I wouldn't have let my sister want.'

 

Philip had found the brother's address only by reading the letter in which he refused a loan; but he shrugged¹⁹ his shoulders: there was no use in recrimination. He hated the little man and wanted to have done with him as soon as possible. Albert Price also wished to get through the necessary business quickly so that he could get back to London. They went to the tiny room in which poor Fanny had lived. Albert Price looked at the pictures and the furniture.

 

'I don't pretend to know much about art,' he said. 'I suppose these pictures would fetch something, would they?'

 

'Nothing,' said Philip.

 

'The furniture's not worth ten shillings.'

 

Albert Price knew no French and Philip had to do everything. It seemed that it was an interminable process to get the poor body safely hidden away under ground: papers had to be obtained in one place and signed in another; officials had to be seen. For three days Philip was occupied from morning till night. At last he and Albert Price followed the hearse to the cemetery²⁰ at Montparnasse.

 

'I want to do the thing decent,' said Albert Price, 'but there's no use wasting money.'

 

The short ceremony was infinitely dreadful in the cold gray morning. Half a dozen people who had worked with Fanny Price at the studio came to the funeral, Mrs. Otter²² because she was massiere and thought it her duty, Ruth Chalice²³ because she had a kind heart, Lawson, Clutton, and Flanagan. They had all disliked her during her life. Philip, looking across the cemetery crowded on all sides with monuments, some poor and simple, others vulgar, pretentious²⁴, and ugly, shuddered. It was horribly sordid²⁵. When they came out Albert Price asked Philip to lunch with him. Philip loathed²⁶ him now and he was tired; he had not been sleeping well, for he dreamed constantly of Fanny Price in the torn brown dress, hanging from the nail in the ceiling; but he could not think of an excuse.

 

'You take me somewhere where we can get a regular slap-up lunch. All this is the very worst thing for my nerves.'

 

'Lavenue's is about the best place round here,' answered Philip.

 

Albert Price settled himself on a velvet²⁷ seat with a sigh of relief. He ordered a substantial luncheon and a bottle of wine.

 

'Well, I'm glad that's over,' he said.

 

He threw out a few artful questions, and Philip discovered that he was eager to hear about the painter's life in Paris. He represented it to himself as deplorable, but he was anxious for details of the orgies which his fancy suggested to him. With sly winks²⁸ and discreet²⁹ sniggering he conveyed that he knew very well that there was a great deal more than Philip confessed. He was a man of the world, and he knew a thing or two. He asked Philip whether he had ever been to any of those places in Montmartre which are celebrated³⁰ from Temple Bar to the Royal Exchange. He would like to say he had been to the Moulin Rouge³¹. The luncheon was very good and the wine excellent. Albert Price expanded as the processes of digestion³² went satisfactorily forwards.

 

'Let's 'ave a little brandy,' he said when the coffee was brought, 'and blow the expense.'

 

He rubbed his hands.

 

'You know, I've got 'alf a mind to stay over tonight and go back tomorrow. What d'you say to spending the evening together?'

 

'If you mean you want me to take you round Montmartre tonight, I'll see you damned,' said Philip.

 

'I suppose it wouldn't be quite the thing.'

 

The answer was made so seriously that Philip was tickled³³.

 

'Besides it would be rotten for your nerves,' he said gravely.

 

Albert Price concluded that he had better go back to London by the four o'clock train, and presently he took leave of Philip.

 

'Well, good-bye, old man,' he said. 'I tell you what, I'll try and come over to Paris again one of these days and I'll look you up. And then we won't 'alf go on the razzle.'

 

Philip was too restless to work that afternoon, so he jumped on a bus and crossed the river to see whether there were any pictures on view at Durand-Ruel's. After that he strolled along the boulevard. It was cold and wind-swept. People hurried by wrapped up in their coats, shrunk together in an effort to keep out of the cold, and their faces were pinched and careworn³⁴. It was icy underground in the cemetery at Montparnasse among all those white tombstones. Philip felt lonely in the world and strangely homesick. He wanted company. At that hour Cronshaw would be working, and Clutton never welcomed visitors; Lawson was painting another portrait of Ruth Chalice and would not care to be disturbed. He made up his mind to go and see Flanagan. He found him painting, but delighted to throw up his work and talk. The studio was comfortable, for the American had more money than most of them, and warm; Flanagan set about making tea. Philip looked at the two heads that he was sending to the Salon³⁵.

 

'It's awful cheek my sending anything,' said Flanagan, 'but I don't care, I'm going to send. D'you think they're rotten?'

 

'Not so rotten as I should have expected,' said Philip.

 

They showed in fact an astounding³⁶ cleverness. The difficulties had been avoided with skill, and there was a dash about the way in which the paint was put on which was surprising and even attractive. Flanagan, without knowledge or technique, painted with the loose brush of a man who has spent a lifetime in the practice of the art.

 

'If one were forbidden to look at any picture for more than thirty seconds you'd be a great master, Flanagan,' smiled Philip.

 

These young people were not in the habit of spoiling one another with excessive flattery.

 

'We haven't got time in America to spend more than thirty seconds in looking at any picture,' laughed the other.

 

Flanagan, though he was the most scatter-brained person in the world, had a tenderness of heart which was unexpected and charming. Whenever anyone was ill he installed himself as sick-nurse. His gaiety was better than any medicine. Like many of his countrymen he had not the English dread²¹ of sentimentality which keeps so tight a hold on emotion; and, finding nothing absurd in the show of feeling, could offer an exuberant³⁷ sympathy which was often grateful to his friends in distress¹⁴. He saw that Philip was depressed³⁸ by what he had gone through and with unaffected kindliness³⁹ set himself boisterously⁴⁰ to cheer him up. He exaggerated the Americanisms which he knew always made the Englishmen laugh and poured out a breathless stream of conversation, whimsical, high-spirited, and jolly. In due course they went out to dinner and afterwards to the Gaite Montparnasse, which was Flanagan's favourite place of amusement. By the end of the evening he was in his most extravagant⁴¹ humour. He had drunk a good deal, but any inebriety⁴² from which he suffered was due much more to his own vivacity⁴³ than to alcohol. He proposed that they should go to the Bal Bullier, and Philip, feeling too tired to go to bed, willingly enough consented. They sat down at a table on the platform at the side, raised a little from the level of the floor so that they could watch the dancing, and drank a bock. Presently Flanagan saw a friend and with a wild shout leaped over the barrier on to the space where they were dancing. Philip watched the people. Bullier was not the resort of fashion. It was Thursday night and the place was crowded. There were a number of students of the various faculties⁴⁴, but most of the men were clerks or assistants in shops; they wore their everyday clothes, ready-made tweeds or queer tail-coats, and their hats, for they had brought them in with them, and when they danced there was no place to put them but their heads. Some of the women looked like servant-girls, and some were painted hussies, but for the most part they were shop-girls. They were poorly-dressed in cheap imitation of the fashions on the other side of the river. The hussies were got up to resemble the music-hall artiste or the dancer who enjoyed notoriety at the moment; their eyes were heavy with black and their cheeks impudently⁴⁵ scarlet⁴⁶. The hall was lit by great white lights, low down, which emphasised the shadows on the faces; all the lines seemed to harden under it, and the colours were most crude. It was a sordid scene. Philip leaned over the rail, staring down, and he ceased to hear the music. They danced furiously. They danced round the room, slowly, talking very little, with all their attention given to the dance. The room was hot, and their faces shone with sweat. it seemed to Philip that they had thrown off the guard which people wear on their expression, the homage⁴⁷ to convention, and he saw them now as they really were. In that moment of abandon they were strangely animal: some were foxy and some were wolf-like; and others had the long, foolish face of sheep. Their skins were sallow from the unhealthy life they led and the poor food they ate. Their features were blunted by mean interests, and their little eyes were shifty and cunning. There was nothing of nobility in their bearing, and you felt that for all of them life was a long succession of petty concerns and sordid thoughts. The air was heavy with the musty smell of humanity. But they danced furiously as though impelled⁴⁸ by some strange power within them, and it seemed to Philip that they were driven forward by a rage for enjoyment⁴⁹. They were seeking desperately⁵⁰ to escape from a world of horror. The desire for pleasure which Cronshaw said was the only motive⁵¹ of human action urged them blindly on, and the very vehemence⁵² of the desire seemed to rob it of all pleasure. They were hurried on by a great wind, helplessly, they knew not why and they knew not whither. Fate seemed to tower above them, and they danced as though everlasting⁵³ darkness were beneath their feet. Their silence was vaguely⁵⁴ alarming. It was as if life terrified them and robbed them of power of speech so that the shriek⁵⁵ which was in their hearts died at their throats. Their eyes were haggard and grim; and notwithstanding the beastly lust⁵⁶ that disfigured them, and the meanness of their faces, and the cruelty, notwithstanding the stupidness which was worst of all, the anguish of those fixed⁵⁷ eyes made all that crowd terrible and pathetic. Philip loathed them, and yet his heart ached with the infinite pity which filled him.

 

He took his coat from the cloak-room and went out into the bitter coldness of the night.

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