Celine: No, I didn't. And it pisses me off, okay? You come here to Paris, all romantic, and married. Okay? Screw you. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to get you. I mean, all I need is a married man. There's been so much water under the bridge, it's not even about you. It's about that moment in time that's forever gone.

 

Jesse: You say that, but you didn't even remember having sex, so...

 

Celine: Of course I remembered.

 

Jesse: You did?

 

Celine: Yes. Women pretend things like that.

 

Jesse: They do?

 

Celine: What was I supposed to say? That I remember the wine in the park and us looking up at the stars fading away as the sun came up? We had sex twice, you idiot!

 

Jesse: All right, you know what, I'm just happy to see you. Even if you've become an angry, manic-depressive activist¹...I still like you, I still enjoy being around you.

 

Celine: And I feel the same. I'm sorry. I don't know what happened, I just... I had to let it all out.

 

Jesse: Don't worry about it.

 

Celine: I'm so miserable² in my love life, in my relationship. I always act as... Like, you know, I'm detached. But I'm dying inside. I'm dying because I'm so numb³. I don't feel pain or excitement, I'm not even bitter, I'm just...

 

Jesse: You think you're the one dying inside? My life is 24/7 bad.

 

Celine: I'm sorry.

 

Jesse:: No, no. I mean, the only happiness I get is when I'm out with my son. I've been to marriage counseling...I've done things I never thought I would have to do. I've lit candles, bought self-help books, lingerie.

 

Celine: Did the candles help?

 

Jesse: Hell, no. I don't love her the way she needs to be loved...and I don't even see a future for us, but then I look at my little boy sitting across from me, and I think I'd suffer any torture...to be with him for all the minutes of his life. I don't want to miss out on one. But then, there's no joy or laughter in my home, you know? I don't want him growing up in that.

 

Celine: No laughter? That's terrible. My parents have been together 35 years...and even when they fight they end up laughing.

 

Jesse: I don't want to be one of those people who are getting divorced at 52...and falling down into tears, admitting they never really loved their spouse⁴...and they feel their life has been sucked up into a vacuum cleaner. You know, I want a great life. I want her to have a great life...she deserves that. But we're just living in the pretense⁵ of a marriage, responsibility...you know, all these ideas of how people are supposed to live. But then I... I have these dreams...

 

Celine: What dreams?

 

Jesse: I have these dreams, you know, that...I'm standing⁶ on a platform...and you keep going by on a train...and you go by, and you go by, and you go by, you go by. And I wake up with the fucking sweats. And then I have this other dream...where you're pregnant in bed beside me naked...and I want so badly to touch you, but you tell me not to and you look away. And I... And I touch you anyway...right on your ankle, and your skin is so soft that I wake up in sobs⁷, all right? My wife is there looking at me, and I feel I'm a million miles from her. And I know that there's something wrong, that I...God, that I can't keep living like this...that there's gotta be more to love than commitment. But then I think that I might have given up...on the whole idea of romantic love. That I might have put it to bed that...That day when you weren't there. You know, I think I might have done that.

 

Celine: Why are you telling me all this?

 

Jesse: I'm sorry. I don't know. I'm... I should...I shouldn't have.

 

Celine: You know, it's so weird⁸. People think they are the only one going through tough times. I mean, when I read the article, I thought your life was perfect. A wife, a kid, published author. But your personal life is more of a mess than mine. I'm sorry.

 

Jesse: Well, I'm glad it's good for something. This is where you live?

 

Celine: Yeah.

 

Jesse: So you're just relieved that I'm in even more deep shit than you are?

 

Celine: Yes, you've made me feel better.

 

Jesse: Oh, good, I'm glad.

 

Celine: No, I really wish you the best. It's not because I'm incapable⁹ of having a good relationship or a family...that I wish everyone to be doomed¹⁰ like me.

 

Jesse: I'm sure you'd make... Be a great mom someday.

 

Celine: Really? You think so?

 

Jesse: Yeah...a few antidepressants, you know, you'll do great.

 

Celine: Okay, say stop.

 

Jesse: Stop. Okay. You ready?

 

Celine: Okay.

 

 

1. manic-depressive：燥狂抑郁病的

 

2. let it all out：塞琳娜在这里的意思是：我需要发泄。

 

3. detached：超然的

 

4. self-help：自助，自立；自救行为

 

5. lingerie：女用贴身内衣裤，女士内衣

 

6. miss out on：错过，失去

 

7. vacuum cleaner：吸尘器

 

8. a mess： 一团糟；混乱

 

9. be doomed：注定

 

10. antidepressant：抗抑郁剂

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