SELF-INTEROGATION,
"The evening passes fast away. 'Tis almost time to rest; What thoughts has left the vanished day, What feelings in thy breast?
"The vanished day? It leaves a sense Of labour hardly done; Of little gained with vast expense—— A sense of grief alone?
"Time stands before the door of Death, Upbraiding1 bitterly And Conscience, with exhaustless breath, Pours black reproach on me:
"And though I've said that Conscience lies And Time should Fate condemn2; Still, sad Repentance3 clouds my eyes, And makes me yield to them!
"Then art thou glad to seek repose4? Art glad to leave the sea, And anchor all thy weary woes6 In calm Eternity7?
"Nothing regrets to see thee go—— Not one voice sobs8' farewell;' And where thy heart has suffered so, Canst thou desire to dwell?"
"Alas9! the countless10 links are strong That bind11 us to our clay; The loving spirit lingers long, And would not pass away!
"And rest is sweet, when laurelled fame Will crown the soldier's crest12; But a brave heart, with a tarnished13 name, Would rather fight than rest.
"Well, thou hast fought for many a year, Hast fought thy whole life through, Hast humbled14 Falsehood, trampled15 Fear; What is there left to do?
"'Tis true, this arm has hotly striven, Has dared what few would dare; Much have I done, and freely given, But little learnt to bear!
"Look on the grave where thou must sleep Thy last, and strongest foe16; It is endurance not to weep, If that repose seem woe5.
"The long war closing in defeat—— Defeat serenely17 borne,—— Thy midnight rest may still be sweet, And break in glorious morn!"