Apologia

　　Is it thy will that I should wax and wane¹，

　　Barter² my cloth of gold for hodden grey，

　　And at thy pleasure weave that web of pain

　　Whose brightest threads are each a wasted day？

　　Is it thy will - Love that I love so well -

　　That my Soul's House should be a tortured spot

　　Wherein， like evil paramours， must dwell

　　The quenchless³ flame， the worm that dieth not？

　　Nay⁴， if it be thy will I shall endure，

　　And sell ambition at the common mart，

　　And let dull failure be my vestiture，

　　And sorrow dig its grave within my heart.

　　Perchance it may be better so - at least

　　I have not made my heart a heart of stone，

　　Nor starved my boyhood of its goodly feast，

　　Nor walked where Beauty is a thing unknown.

　　Many a man hath done so； sought to fence

　　In straitened bonds the soul that should be free，

　　Trodden the dusty road of common sense，

　　While all the forest sang of liberty，

　　Not marking how the spotted⁵ hawk⁶ in flight

　　Passed on wide pinion⁷ through the lofty air，

　　To where some steep untrodden mountain height

　　Caught the last tresses of the Sun God's hair.

　　Or how the little flower he trod upon，

　　The daisy， that white-feathered shield of gold，

　　Followed with wistful eyes the wandering sun

　　Content if once its leaves were aureoled.

　　But surely it is something to have been

　　The best beloved for a little while，

　　To have walked hand in hand with Love， and seen

　　His purple wings flit once across thy smile.

　　Ay！ though the gorged⁸ asp of passion feed

　　On my boy's heart， yet have I burst the bars，

　　Stood face to face with Beauty， known indeed

　　The Love which moves the Sun and all the stars！