by Minnie Bruce Pratt

    In Hollywood， California （she'd been told） women travel

    on roller skates， pull a string of children， grinning， gaudy-

    eyed as merry-go-round horses， brass¹ wheeled

    under a blue canopy² of sky.

    Beatrice had never

    lived in such a place. This morning， for instance， beside

    Roxboro Road， she'd seen a woman with no feet wheel

    her chair into fragile clumps³ of new grass. Her legs ended

    at the ankle， old brown cypress⁴ knees. She furrowed⁵ herself

    by hand through the ground. Cars passed. The sky stared down.

    At the center of the world's blue eye， the woman stared back.

    Years revolved⁶， began to circle Beatrice， a ring of burning eyes.

    They flared⁷ and smoked like the sawmill fires she walked past

    as a child， in the afternoon at 4 o'clock， she and a dark woman，

    past the cotton gin， onto the bridge above the railroad tracks.

    There they waited for wheels to rush like the wings of an iron angel，

    for the white man at the engine to blow the whistle. Beatrice had waited

    to stand in the tremble of power.

    Thirty years later she saw

    the scar， the woman who had walked beside her then， split

    but determined⁸ to live， raising mustard greens to get through

    the winter. Whether she had， this spring， Beatrice did not know.

    If she was sitting， knotted feet to the stove， if the coal had lasted，

    if she cared for her company， pictures under table glass，

    the eyes of children she had raised for others.

    If Beatrice went back

    to visit at her house， sat unsteady in a chair in the smoky room，

    they'd be divided by past belief， the town's parallel tracks，

    people never to meet even in distance. They would be joined

    by the memory of walking back up Depot⁹ Street.

    She could sit

    and say： I have changed， have tried to replace the iron heart

    with a heart of flesh.

    But the woman whose hands had washed her，

    had pulled a brush through her hair， whose hands had brought her maypops，

    the green fruit and purple flowers， fierce eyes of living creatures——

    What had she given her back， that woman， anything all these years？

    Words would not remake the past. She could not make it

    vanish like an old photograph thrown onto live coals.

    If she meant to live in the present， she would have to work， do

    without， send money， call home long distance about the heat.

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