HONOUR'S
MARTYR1.
The moon is full this winter night; The stars are clear, though few; And every window glistens2 bright With leaves of frozen dew.
The sweet moon through your lattice gleams, And lights your room like day; And there you pass, in happy dreams, The peaceful hours away!
While I, with effort hardly quelling3 The anguish4 in my breast, Wander about the silent dwelling5, And cannot think of rest.
The old clock in the gloomy hall Ticks on, from hour to hour; And every time its measured call Seems lingering slow and slower:
And, oh, how slow that keen-eyed star Has tracked the chilly6 gray! What, watching yet! how very far The morning lies away!
Without your chamber7 door I stand; Love, are you slumbering8 still? My cold heart, underneath9 my hand, Has almost ceased to thrill.
Bleak10, bleak the east wind sobs11 and sighs, And drowns the turret12 bell, Whose sad note, undistinguished, dies Unheard, like my farewell!
To-morrow, Scorn will blight13 my name, And Hate will trample14 me, Will load me with a coward's shame—— A traitor15's perjury16.
False friends will launch their covert17 sneers18; True friends will wish me dead; And I shall cause the bitterest tears That you have ever shed.
The dark deeds of my outlawed19 race Will then like virtues20 shine; And men will pardon their disgrace, Beside the guilt21 of mine.
For, who forgives the accursed crime Of dastard22 treachery? Rebellion, in its chosen time, May Freedom's champion be;
Revenge may stain a righteous sword, It may be just to slay23; But, traitor, traitor,——from THAT word All true breasts shrink away!
Oh, I would give my heart to death, To keep my honour fair; Yet, I'll not give my inward faith My honour's NAME to spare!
Not even to keep your priceless love, Dare I, Beloved, deceive; This treason should the future prove, Then, only then, believe!
I know the path I ought to go I follow fearlessly, Inquiring not what deeper woe24 Stern duty stores for me.
So foes25 pursue, and cold allies Mistrust me, every one: Let me be false in others' eyes, If faithful in my own.